Today I want to talk about a conversation I had the other day with my sister. We were talking about the go to person, who do they go to?
We haven’t touched on my testimony yet, but I have spent more than half of my life in a dark place. Depression has been something I have battled with since a young child. After just starting my relationship with God and realizing the anointing on my life, it all began to make since why the enemy was trying to snuff out my light. My favorite thing to do in those times was talk about everything but me. People would ask me about me and I would find a way to flip it right back onto them.
When I got to my current church home, my Pastor would always talk about gifts and assignments and I was never fully educated on that previously. As I began to seek God about my gifts, I began to think about those times. In most cases, I would say something that I was completely unaware of knowing and I wasn’t spiritual enough to know I was being used as a vessel. I was right where I was needed. I was the go to person. People love talking to me and I love listening to them.
Now I’m becoming more aware of gifts and assignments. I’m more in tune with God than I have ever been in my life. I’ll go somewhere and talk to somebody and I’ll arrive not understanding why I was there but leave with clarity. I’m more aware that the go to person may just be on assignment. So when I began to think like that, some of my frustration with it seeming like I’m always the listener and not the talker were made clear to me. God is who the go to person goes to. Everything we go through in this life is for somebody else. I was depressed, suicidal, you name it. God brought me out of that to talk to somebody else that feels like they can’t make it. To give them hope. To send them to the same God that brought me out. Have you ever randomly talked to somebody dealing with something you’ve been delivered from? It’s almost surreal, the very moment that you realize that THIS is why you had to make it through what you’ve been through. You begin to feel the presence of God in the room. When I get to that moment, I just lift my hands in the air (so now everybody that I’ve done it around can understand because I never explain lol). There is nothing left to do but to give God glory. I would always pray that I didn’t become unusable by God. That was something that was truly placed in my head by the enemy, that I’ve done so much bad in my short 27 years, that I’ve ran for so long that God couldn’t use me anymore. It truly broke my heart to think about. It took me getting to my fertile ground and HEARING the Word of God say in Romans 3:23 “for all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God”. I am surrounded by people that have fallen short at some point in life and God was able to use them and their shortcomings to pour into ME.
So now I take it for what it truly is, an assignment to help someone with my testimony. I go to God and let Him fill me with what I need to talk to His people that He’s going to place in my path. I was never supposed to use my own words and my own strength. Sometimes when the enemy is attacking from every corner and it seems you have nobody to vent to or go to, take it to God. That’s another opportunity for Him to get the Glory. 2 Corinthians 2:9 “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” You may not have another person to talk to but God is always there. He’s more than excited to talk to you in those moments when you need somebody to go to.
From one go to person to another: Stay Encouraged. My best friend recently reminded me that God conditions you for the race you’re running. Never get weary in well doing. You’re built to take everything the enemy throws at you because God is going to fight the battle for you. Just stay focused. Let’s be realistic, sometimes you may get knocked down but the key is to not STAY down. When you feel yourself getting down and out and there is no one physically around to BE THERE, just know God never left 💜